For most of my life, feeling the energy and pain of other humans around me has been a negative and unwelcome part of me. I have had this since my earliest memories and while I blocked most of this from ages twelve to forty one (see my blog therapyviathisblog) , sometimes that energy would creep in to my soul and cause some real problems. These conflicts would make my 20's and thirties problematic as far as emotions and sensitivity are concerned. I simply did not know at all what these feelings were called or that others felt the same way. Until I met Dena, in January of 2015. That, is when my world changed in so many ways. For me that meant learning of her gifts as a light worker and intuitive were part of her and as a Reiki master, that she could easily perceive and feel many things. I was and am still in we of her gifts in this regard and have learned many things about this, but NOT in regards to my own power. This has really only happened over the last six months or so, in a HUGE way!
The term "empath" has always been a mystery to me and all those many years of feeling energy and emotions, of taking these on in myself, in being extremely sensitive to others...this was being empathetic. The description and definition is this:
I knew I had this "gift/curse" after reading up on all the aspects and how they related to me, my own feelings and the everyday struggles to deal with it. So, I let that all drift away and tried to just forget about it and move on with life, not letting others and their drama, circus atmosphere wreck or affect my own life. This is not easy and still is not. Nor, I believe, will be as long as I keep being ignorant of what to do.
So I took a few tests, inquired and asked questions from those who know, especially Dena. One test came out with this as the defining result:
"Your Super Serious Title is: The Atlas Empath (Planetary Healer)
Your Total Score: 71 out of 80 Your Out of Control Healer Score: 9 out of 10 Your Protection Tools Score: 19 out of 25 How Much You Mirror Others Unconsciously Score: 15 out of 15 Your Appreciation for Nature Score: 10 out of 10 You scored extremely high on the overall results. You are definitely an empath. You are pretty intuitive and can usually tell when people are lying. You may want to look into getting energy work and healing done on your second chakra. Usually people that need to be around water all the time have blocks in their second chakras. You love nature and unconsciously understand its healing effects -- which is a general, but strong indicator that you are an empath. You have a deep love and appreciation for nature. You recognize the sacred expression of all beings. You are truly wise. But you have a gift for influencing the moods, energies, atmospheres, and environments around you. You need to learn how to recognize and differentiate other people's energy from yours. Learning psychic/empathic meditation tools will help. You scored the worst on the "Mirroring Others Unconsciously" portion of the quiz. It looks like you have a tendency to mirror other people and their energy. This means that you give up your energetic seniority at the whim of the world's changing winds (in other words: other people are able to control or influence you too much on an energy level). You would benefit from learning to control your crown chakra and probably cord removal or healing work. Wow, being around the wrong type of people definitely stresses you out. You should be more cautious about who you let into your personal space and life. You are so caring and loving that you put others before yourself -- to your detriment. You are most likely an out of control healer. You would benefit from energy work and empath tools for releasing guilt and responsibility.
Empath Test
I took a few others and the results are all the same, and I hope to take a more detailed test later.
But seeing what the results are, broken down into EVERY emotion and detail I feel...this was as if lightning had struck my soul. As if the description fit me to a T. It is actually a bit scary, to be honest. This can be a gift or a curse for sure, depending on how one uses it, lets it affect them and how it permeates the soul and consciousness. My first reaction was "Damn, ugh...a frown". Second reaction was a smile in that I had finally come to a place that my heart and soul could embrace without feeling anxious and stressed. I have enough of that from the energy of others and do NOT need more. I knew I had a lot of work to do, lots of study, and that I needed help from others in the same field. But till then, these lessons below are something I need to adjust to and tackle:
Dena has been telling me this for years now and I try my best to follow such things. it is not her fault that I'm stubborn and hard headed. Actually, it is difficult for some empaths to deal with these things as we are all still imperfect humans. But these same things Dena has been encouraging are even more evident now. Life is changing for me and my path, my journey...is veering again. Not sure where this will take me or the people I will meet, experiences I will find nor the places I will visit. But I know that something has to be done or the energy and feelings will eat me alive, in a negative way. So...Seumas now has some work to do and a LOT to learn. With the help of my partners, my tribe and those not even known yet, I hope to use my gifts in a positive way and help others!!! <3
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I took a few others and the results are all the same, and I hope to take a more detailed test later.
But seeing what the results are, broken down into EVERY emotion and detail I feel...this was as if lightning had struck my soul. As if the description fit me to a T. It is actually a bit scary, to be honest. This can be a gift or a curse for sure, depending on how one uses it, lets it affect them and how it permeates the soul and consciousness. My first reaction was "Damn, ugh...a frown". Second reaction was a smile in that I had finally come to a place that my heart and soul could embrace without feeling anxious and stressed. I have enough of that from the energy of others and do NOT need more. I knew I had a lot of work to do, lots of study, and that I needed help from others in the same field. But till then, these lessons below are something I need to adjust to and tackle:
Dena has been telling me this for years now and I try my best to follow such things. it is not her fault that I'm stubborn and hard headed. Actually, it is difficult for some empaths to deal with these things as we are all still imperfect humans. But these same things Dena has been encouraging are even more evident now. Life is changing for me and my path, my journey...is veering again. Not sure where this will take me or the people I will meet, experiences I will find nor the places I will visit. But I know that something has to be done or the energy and feelings will eat me alive, in a negative way. So...Seumas now has some work to do and a LOT to learn. With the help of my partners, my tribe and those not even known yet, I hope to use my gifts in a positive way and help others!!! <3
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