Monday, November 4, 2019

Extrovert to introvert?

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                     The last six months have been amazing for me and while there have been few negative events and experiences, some have made an impact. The summer was great and when I posted last here, my goal was to step back considerably from social media and the trappings of Facebook and other online activities. I can honestly say that I feel this to be a success as now it is rare that I post daily . Perhaps a few a week, and it feels like huge pressures and weights have been lifted! Admittedly, doing this has also apparently made some cease following my posts and leave. I feel a wee bit sad about that but know that is how it goes. Out of sight, out of mind is truly apropos when it comes to Facebook and other instant gratification vehicles. And that is ok as there is no changing it!

                   Facebook can be deadly and a disease, if you think about it. But I do agree that in smaller doses, it has delightful uses and can be fun. The fact that I will post this blog there testifies that there are some positives about it. Still, weening oneself off of the daily, hourly and minute by minute excess can and has done wonders for me!!


   Reducing my intake of Facebook by almost 75% has been seriously positive and enriching!! It has forced me to realize how much time I spent there and wasted on continual browsing, "liking" and  posting.

Now...I spend that time with classical music, shooting photographs and creating art, interacting with my partners and friends! I spend more time reading, researching genealogy and the family trees, more time meditating.

       Life is less pressured!!



                  Which is a grand segue into how much I have changed in the last six months. I used to be the worlds most extroverted extrovert! Always on the go and being with people, around others and thriving when socially interacting with others. When I WASN'T  doing that and forced to be alone, I was depressed and moody. I needed that input, that interaction and time with those who were part of my circle. As the summer progressed though, I started to change. My time alone was starting to become more and more valuable to me. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought of myself as introverted , to actually enjoy and relish my alone time . Yet...it has happened!! I have become much more of an Ambivert!!










As I age I am increasingly becoming a LOT more introverted and enjoying my time by myself. This is still bizarre for me as I sit in silence or read a book while listening to music. I used to always feel I needed to be DOING SOMETHING!! But, I don't!!









   As this path opens up to me and my time alone takes on a different form, there are many aspects to this I relish. At least for now. Will I swing back the other direction? Possibly, when the opportunities present themselves. But as of right now, that is not something I look forward to as I embrace the time I have alone.



                                              I welcome this new part of my life!!


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