Last week I posted on Facebook the following:
The last few months have seen my focus become a bit blurred. I spend WAY too much time online and chatting, surfing and not near enough with the things that really made me happier, like more running, classical music, poetry, meditation and the most essential...spending time with my family. Seems I have that that stupid phone with me ALL THE TIME. Well, time for a move backwards. I shall continue to be on Facebook and post but won't be near as much nor will I be as chatty as I was before. Also, I went through my FRIENDS list and have pared that down to those who really DO interact. This is a positive and very good move and one that is overdue. I will still get messages and such but my response times might be longer. On to positive and happy thoughts as well as more time away from this monster!! Love to all of you!! —
feeling determined.
So, now that some time has passed, what result can I see? Well, I certainly have dropped back on posts and very much so with chatting online. Granted, this is NOT EASY!!! When one is so used to a way of life and structure, when being surrounded by those I love and communicate with, when the day is busy and rich with activity...it is difficult to give it up in an instant. I knew that might happen but was determined to follow through. And I have. But, not as much as I wanted. It can be frustrating. Trying my hardest to not go online and to leave the phone alone. Yet, I am getting better. Most of the time I look like this:
It is not due to online addiction to gaming nor to a need for porn (although I love that resource like any other person does). It is the communication factor. being able to be within reach of my loved ones. Of making sure the girls are all doing ok and that I can be at the ready to help if needed. But, I do also need my alone time and as a Myers-Briggs classified type of ESFJ (really close to ENFJ) I want to be near others. Tough line to ride is this. So, now that my goal has been set to stay away from the Facebook and internet, I can adjust accordingly. Some might think by looking at my posts that I have changed little. Well, perhaps they didn't realize how many posts a day I added.One thing I will NOT do is cease communication with friends and family. There are some who feel I have drifted away and won't talk for one reason or another. Not true. Time and schedule have really played a large role in not being as chatty as well. I'm trying to let those folks know that. Takes time but I shall get back to where I was. :-)
That will change. A slower process, but it shall change. It is for the betterment of me.
An update on my beard journey: It has now officially stopped until September 1st. No, I was not going to shave it again and then wish I hadn't . This time I seriously thought about things and realized that it was making non-existent something that I truly enjoyed: flute playing. Yes, it certainly did. I could not make sounds at ALL with my rim blown flutes. Whether shakuhachi nor native American flutes. Not being able to play these puts a serious damper on my music making. I cannot play the guitar, classical or electric, due to the hand and finger issues with arthritis and last years cat bites. So the flutes are my outlet. Add that running with the beard is NOT enjoyable and makes me overheat quickly. So, I decided to shave it. Again.
Right after becoming super smooth faced, I went right to the flutes and played just as i had before. Embouchure was back!! Don't get me wrong...I adore the beard. But the flutes matter more. And now I get to look like I'm 10 years younger instead of a geezer about ready to retire.
Now we are off to a meetup group to see some good friends and down a pint or two of superb ales. The day started with a run on the Portland waterfront with my friend ,Stephanie, and will end with seeing her and many others at a pub. Good times!!!
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